I talked to myself a lot now.
There's always a continuous conversation between my inner soldiers and sometime there's even a war. Aren't the inner soldiers were supposed to be on my side? they seemed like working on some conspiracy against me. Somehow, it's like a party in here ( i'm pointing to my head ) and here ( to my chest)
Heck , their voices are something that you can't easily resists.and due to that , i daydream a lot.
my amount of daydream was countless and i'm trying to keep myself busy from now onwards. if not , i'll be trap in illusions and was far away from reality. Freak , i sound like a psychopath. oh wait , i am one.
Inner struggle was my compulsory routine. Every time, no doubt. It was so shambolic inside. i should get a grip!
I feel like i have no control of my body thus everything i do was a complete waste. Pathetic story to begin with in 2011. well , this year hadn't do much of virtue and deterioration of self esteem is currently occur. I don't have a clue of what's going on or what's happening to me. i'm in my deepest confusion and convoluted state.
I couldn't find my right path , not for now
Puzzleheaded , AL
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