It is crystal clear now

Few days back , i did thought about making a post for my little cousin but i didn't quite have time to do so. He's been hospitalized for a week and did two surgery for his legs and spinal cord. So, we went to the hospital on Saturday and straight to the ICU. There's like thousands of wires all around him and one in his nose and three to four monitor machines beside his bed. Seriously come on , he's four. It was heart wrenching. I was very worried about his respiratory fluctuation. it kept beeping on the monitor. then silent the beeping again. If you were in my place, i don't know how would you respond. He's too young. I couldn't help myself so i cried a couple of tears. My mom said she can't bare watch it for a long time and either am I. Less then ten minutes, we were out. 

I did thought about watching him grow up and all that. You know , you always wanted to know how it ends when you already follow the journey since the beginning right? I always have that fear of  what if  this happen and what if that happen. * sigh* 

Everything happens too quick. Too quick for me to catch up with. I miss a lot of thing about Ammar , my little cousin. Most of the time he feel uncomfortable with me but i keep teasing him. Kids have their own issues having me around, i don't know why. Ammar is definitely  not the first. 

After the visit , we went back to Seremban. sent Opah to her house then sleep at my aunt's. The next evening , my father got a call. He said , pack your things , we're leaving early today