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Ibu reminds me to fill the scholarship form because the head of HR send the scholar form to her personal email and she would like to submit it early. the closing date of the submission would be somewhere in the middle of February. It was never my intention to make this postponement as my main planning as i do not have anything to do for now but it has been tough on me to select the exact courses and universities to further my study. UPU has given me headache with the 11 choices of courses and fields which interest me most but i have to tell you, my neurons probably getting wired by now.

I did have a thought about taking BAA but my mother seems unsure about it she said " awak nak amik business add? bersepah-sepah orang amik business add sekarang ni" due to my so called aware-of-what-she-will-say, i asked for my father's opinion before that and he said " okay je". the best thing about my dad is that he never really question my decision, i mean he's okay with what ever i choose. crown it all, he tends to give side opinion about other courses he thinks suits me best. My mother is a person whom is very nice to talk to while my father, he is like the motivator and he could share anything about this world with me. even about his paper and proposals. we even talk about the bawani's issues. mind you, i'm not going to talk about that.

I googled about accounting, economics and BAA. how people react to what they learn, what to expect, how to maintain your ground. It's all about numbers. I can tell you, i'm not good in numbers but i do believe in one thing ( you might disagree with me ) I believe in the power of effort. It doesn't really matter if you don't like certain subjects but if you make attempts, work hard, take the risk, insyaAllah everything will fall into places. i didn't like physics during secondary school. At all. I couldn't understand a thing. once in form 4 i pass my test, the rest? Failed! when i was in form 5, i got B for my physics. i failed once, before that i pass once. You control your own mind. It's how you develop your mind to achieve things you never thought you would.

Still, i keep those preferred course and university column blank. maybe I shall make up my mind tomorrow. praying for the best. Pray. somehow, i have neglected things i should be taking care of.