The day

21st March 2013 is the day I put my heart and soul into it
The day that i was ready to be punch in my stomach, the day i prepared a space for a scar set place, the day i know that could turn things around for the rest of my life.

I walked and ran and jumped and hid behind bushes i build upon my eyes
so that everyone ccould see how strong I am despite the result I got
No baby don't cry, i told myself.
With a hopeful father waiting in the canteen
With his friend whom i thought would probably beat the best out of me
With a mother whom was willing to take a halt in her job spending ringgit for a taxi just to see her daughter running and laughing and cried in joy like two years ago?
How can I do this? How can I?

and so I stood, like a statue.
In the middle of crowd, in the middle of whom they called the Youngstar, The hope, The Next Generation of          Excellence
but I feel, tak  layak, not worthy
to be standing in the middle of laughing crowd, proud parents and there were, there were
sympathy eyes staring at me like an owl in the night but they were sharp. A sharp sympathy owl eyes
and there i was, like a small rodent throwing out chip sounds to beg for released.
Released me from this unfinished negative stares and thoughts and sympathy.
Released me so that I could run to find my small rodent soldiers so that we can fight, fight for our right
to have a life where everybody would have faith in us so that we too, can become your
 Next Generation of Excellence, in our own way and so, I beg to differ.

SPM2013.