I went for changes . Instead of throwing black and white to my blog i went for something more edgy. its like red or maroon or brown something. who cares anyway. 

So , i found something that  really really strike me. It's like getting hit in the chest ( though i never get  in those kinda situation before, they seemed to say it enormous time in movies) . through that picture, i saw a different side of me. something that i never though i would looked like. Now , i see a new angle that i should have seen wayyyy before. Again i feel bad about myself. YES  , it's the moment when you feel  so down in your deepest dark cold life that you don't wanna get up. i send defeat speech to myself. Plenty of times.

* down down down down down *

i got myself up and i let myself down. i got high and i damnly got low. i feel like the best and i feel like a looser.

This is like 2011 mashup . It's crazy !!