Not everything i did involve you even if i want to

say i was mad , what would i get back in return? nothing. yea nothing and so i decide, not to get all fucked up with my past. from now on , imma enjoy everything as long as i could enjoy. Photos , videos, craps i talked, stupid crushes besides what can I laughed about rather than these?

I looked over Safwan's photos but i cant seem to look every single one of them as he sets his album private or he deleted the photos, who cares anyway. found pictures back in form 2 if i wasn't mistaken. i could laugh my ass off this time. its weird to know that you did change when you feel nothing towards the conversion. it's like nothing happen. really. I haven't open my pendrive  for quite sometime know. The content was a lot to take in. there was so many files and chats and song folders that really could brought me to certain feelings that i can't adjust to even till now.


i guess i can't adjust to anything after all


well , my first ever exam in this year is next month so i gotta work hard to achieve my target. Like superb hard because everybody is on the same level. I need a scholarship. if i don't fight for myself then who will right? I don't want to burden my parents to pay for my education. what the heck? I was never born rich but my parents gave me everything that i wished for. Now , it's payback time.

I got a year and a half until i no longer carry a " school student" tittle. It must be weird , mustn't it? not doing the daily routine you did since 6 or 5 or maybe 4 years old. How does it feel anyway?