Breezy

somehow i think , the gap between my friends and i are getting bigger. I tried to somehow pulled everyone to the point where we would stick around like old days though not seeing each other but the works doesn't paid off to be exact. i reckoned it is too soon to make a conclusion of what might happen if this thing keep on going but the thing is , i can't see where the friendship is heading to. I am saddened by that. everyone involved should. the hustle and bustle have been going on for a year already. we are no towards good bond. Majority of us , just carry on life as what it's supposed to be. Meeting new friends , doing new routines or at least find something to get distracted from all of this. to make matter worse , we pretend like it's never meant to be. i tried to put everything back together , i tried yet it seems like i'm ruining it even more. I can't carry on without them knowing i do care, it's just hurt to know that they have found a replacement. it is somehow  good yet  it is heart-breaking.
There's always someone better somewhere out there but it ain't gonna work if you can't let go of the past.

or maybe , we should create a new world so that they  would willingly draw their attentions  back to us again? For the time being , myself matter most. i don't want to do something that will make me regret later. no , it is not going to happen. not this time. sorry , my purpose of living in this world is not just to be a person that you share your devastating side of stories. i am human being. you should know , you should understand unless you are not one.